Finding the Lost Me #2 – Hatred, Faith, and Love

Searching for Peace of Mind

Series: Finding the Lost Me

I do not think peace and love in the world can be found. If so, at the very least, I must seek peace of mind. I am a coward. I have no courage to fight against the world. The world where common sense I once trusted held true has already disappeared. People hate and despise one another. Women against men, men against women, the young against the old, the old against the young. Race, religion, politics, gender, nation—the world is at war.

Where does my anger come from?

I do not fight on the internet. I do not quarrel with anyone offline. I only watch their battles, directly or indirectly. Yet why am I angry? Why is my heart not at peace?

All I wanted was a quiet space of my own. A place where no one could intrude, where I could have my time. But the noise of their conflicts penetrates my walls and reaches me. The arrows of hatred and rage they hurl at each other have struck me, an innocent passerby. I thought ignoring it would be enough. But now, the battle continues within my own heart.

I have no religion

As a student, I disliked religion. I saw only its negative aspects and generalized them. I thought religion was a superstition for the weak. Especially Christianity—I considered it the worst. Resurrection, God—everything seemed pointless.

But now, I see things differently. People no longer speak of compassion. Kindness, consideration, coexistence, and compromise have vanished. As a child, I was mischievous, yet my neighborhood surrounded me with affection. What I once took for granted has now become rare. In this world filled with hatred, I do not have the courage to resist.

The only thing I can do is pray for harmony and peace to return to the world. And I hope that one day mischievous children will again live freely, embraced by caring hearts. Though I did not once believe, I now realize I have become more like those who do.

Returning to an era of compassion

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

I pray that we may return to an era where compassion and kindness guide us once again.